S.A.D

you said

why you r keep quiet, have nothing from you since 2 days ago.

you not really talk to me,

you keep silent

you never write me to say goodnight

you never write me to say hi, how are you.

you never ... is it very difficult for you to write me ?

its just need a minute, to do that,

why can't you do it ?

he asked me this all questions

it's seem like its my fault

he is asking me with his anger, upset, and he is angry too.

my brain is empty, my mind is messy.

but i'm not stupid

Did he know all this question is the same what in my mind for him too ?
why can't he do the same to me too ?

he even not really do that to me then why he has to angry with me
about i not doing that?

i'm confused...

confused and confused...

i'm okay but i'm just sad ....

if the relationship have to keep going like this
only me care about him 

i will choose to give up

i will

why its always my fault ?

am i that bad ??

i really don't know ....

i just sad

because i'm just like a toy for him .... 

a toy that just keep accompany him....

it's sad to know about it ....

but its okay .... because i'm used to it ...

i used to pretend ....its me !!!

Thanks ....