不明白

只是觉得我根本就是不了解你，也不知道自己到底对你来说是什么，我根本猜测不到到底你在想什么，我就是一个没用的人，什么都不是。觉得自己很了解你但是其实并不是。一直在想，到底两个人在一起是为了什么？如果必须自己一个人去面对的那么两个人在一起又有什么意义呢？很多时候以为自己对你来说是很重要的，但是原来并不是，任何事情，人对你来说都比我重要，我永远是你最后想到的那个。

mad

I Feel so mad of myself....

and everything ... of myself....

i just angry .. and mad .....

i hate this feeling inside me ...

what can i do ?

why always give me this kind of shit ?

and why always give me this kind of problem ??

i really really really very mad......

Footprints

One night I dreamed a dream.

I was walking along the beach with my Lord.

Across the dark sky flashed scenes from my life.

For each scene, I noticed two sets of footprints in the sand,

one belonging to me and one to my Lord.

When the last scene of my life shot before me

I looked back at the footprints in the sand and to my suprise,

I noticed that many times along the path of my life

There was only one set of footprints.

I realized that this was at the lowest and saddest times of my life.

This always bothered me and I questioned the Lord about my dilemma.

"Lord, you told me when i decided to follow You,

You would walk and talk with me all the way.

But I'm aware that during the most troublesome times of my life

there is only one set of footprints.

I just don't understand why, when I needed You most,

You leave me."

He whispered, "My precious child,

I love you and will never leave you

never, ever, during your trials and testings.

When you saw only one set of footprints

it was then that I carried you."

©1964 Margaret Fishback Powers

當我牢牢抓緊你的時候 你為甚麼把手放開

當我牢牢抓緊你的時候

你為甚麼把手放開

而讓我陷入另一個胡思亂想的困境

我很討厭這樣的感覺

你知道嗎？

當我每次想要放棄的時候

是你緊緊的把我抓緊

但是為甚麼都不能給我安全感呢？

為甚麼總是讓我覺得你並不是真心的？

為甚麼總是讓我覺得你總是還有別人呢？

我真的很討厭這樣的感覺

每次我都因為這樣的感覺

而一次再一次的讓我有想逃的感覺

也一次再一次的讓我們的感情破裂

我真的迷茫了....