you dont care !!!

oh...

now only know....

you don't care

then why should i care ??

hate the feeling inside me

without you ...

i just feel like shit...

i dont know how ..

and i don't know what...

i just confused

and i feel bad .....

and i hate this kind of feeling inside my body ...

coz its make me down .

i dont like and i don't like

and i hate....

i just wan to cut myself to forget...

i dont know what to do ....

aarrggghhh .....

i dont really know what going wrong about us

and i just feel its so so so shit to me

maybe i just shit to you

i do not know...

sigh ... this kind of feeling and question

just bother me....

i do not know what happen and what i have to do ...

Never fade away ♥ Memories is sealed

my dearest fren, Keith Bandy (10.05.1980 - 22.05.2010)

I still remember you

all of the conversations we had

memories keep resurfacing

i struggled to understand

then i found out that you gone

you are no longer here with us

your kindness, your smiling,

you brightened up any situation

always lent a listening ear

everything of you are gone too

i just wishing you were here

i can't comprehend it

i can't and i've tried

wished for you back

but no ...

you are not here...

why you had to go?

you are far away from me

but now you are really far away from me

and somewhere that i can't reach you

lost,

i have so much to say

how i feel, what i think

but i have no chance to talk to you

Im looking silently at the night sky

i still searching the reason why

why you leave me like this

you're just far away

it's hard for me to believe that you're gone

i miss you,

i will miss you always

i wish we could talk just one more time

i wish we had one day or one hour or just one minute to spend with

to let you know how much i love you - my dearest fren

how much i care about u ....

just wan to give u a hug...

and tell you that i really do love you my fren

but i missed it

and we missed it

and hate that we never do it when u r still alive

to tell you that we love you, miss you and care about you

and now ...

after you gone...

we are realized that...

but its too late

and from here...

we want to tell u ...

we all loved you, we still do

we all miss you, we always will

we will never forget you - Keith

I cant help it

i try to be strong

but sometimes i just cant help it

i miss you ...

you know ...

time moves too fast

and i cant think

I know

i know that you're not coming back

you're safe now, at peace

but i don't like this situation

and i have no choice

i just hope ...

you will come to see me sometimes !!

dont forget me !!!

love you Keith..

last but not least ...

you are in my heart forever

and you are in part of my memories forever

and never fade away !!! hugs !!

Dearest my love,

I awake every morning

I searching you

I say morning to you

but i realize

you are no more there

the pain inside me

its still there ...

and never goes away

i tried to pretend

pretend that i don't miss you

i don't think about you

but

minute by minute

you are still in my mind

i miss you

i miss your voice

i wan to call you

but i just realize u r no more there

phone ringing

but nobody pick up

i have no choice

put down the phone

i dont let my tears drop down ..

but inside my heart...its crying.

i wish

i wish to hear u one more time

just to tell you that i love you

and i love you very much

i wish

i wish to be with you just one more second

just wan to feel that you are here with me

and i wan to hug u tight

i wish

i wish you are just right in front of me

just wan to look at you

and try hard to remember your face

so its wont fade away by time fly.

i wish

i wish you are really here with me

just for 1 second

because i wan to tell u that

i really do love you so much

do you know

the day u left

im actually follow you ....

where u go .. and where i go ...

but u leave me half way ....

you leave me alone ...

and i have no choice

i have to return back to the reality ...

and i'm all alone now

and all my memories are you

and you and only you

i tried so hard to remember every minute we have been together

i want to be strong

but i still cry...

and you are the reason that's why i cry

i miss you ...

and i really do miss you

do you know

i lost you and i lost my mind

i lost you and i lost my soul

you are my spirit ..

you are my soul ...

i can't find my way ...

i need you ....

do you know

i wish ...

everyday ...

i hope i can meet you again

only 1 second...

but i never

even in my dream ...

i never dream about you

is it u never come to see me ???

i just wan to tell you ..

i really do misss you alot and love you alot...my lovely and dearest mommy ♥

i am the superwoman

i will do everything by myself

just by myself...

and by myself .....

驚醒的這一刻

又是凌晨3點多

我又被惡夢驚醒了

好討厭我夢裡的人物

可是我做不了甚麼

但是在現實上我好像也是有點討厭他呢

要控制，控制

現在我要做甚麼？

嘗試著入睡

但是還是不行

唯有等了

等

等

等

要等到甚麼時候呢？

好討厭這樣的感覺哦！

no fade away !!

flying...

flying...

i saw you

far far away

i can't touch you

i can't hear you

i saw you

you are far far away from me

Waving my hand to you

Screaming out your name

but

but you can't see me

you can't hear me

It's not a dream

you are really there

somewhere far from me

somewhere i can't reach you

i want to tell you how much i miss you

i want to tell you how much i love you

me , i still can't forget you

you are the only one who i care the most

you are the only one who i love the most

do you know that ?

i just wonder...

do you come to see me sometimes ?

because

i feel ...

i feel ...

you are slowly to go from my memory

you are slowly to fade away ....

no no

i can't let this happen

no no

no way !!!

從新出發，可以嗎？

決定了，不知道是否正確

無論如何，我還是會接受

因為這是我現在僅有的計劃了

在這些日子里

一直逃避

一直不敢面對事實

有很多事情都輕易，不在乎的帶過

這是懦弱的行為，我知道

但是我卻沒有勇氣面對

我怕受傷害，也害怕傷害別人

說真心話是很難受的

而且還必需讓對你有期待的人接受你對他說的事實

我覺得很無奈也很無助

因為我在乎

所以我害怕

害怕把事實說出來

但是不這樣，我還能怎樣？

不喜歡這樣的情況出現

也不喜歡面對這樣的情況

唉，好煩！

只是想一直的逃

卻沒有勇氣面對事實

和讓他人面對事實

只是想逃，逃，逃，

但，

現在，

我要自己鼓起勇氣，

去面對我很久前就必需面對的事情

讓自己站起來

也讓他們負起他們自己必需負的責任

不是嗎？

Love the way you lie

another song of Eminem..

and i ♥ its too !!

Just gonna stand there
And watch me burn
But that's alright
Because I like
The way it hurts
Just gonna stand there
And hear me cry
But that's alright
Because I love
The way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

I can't tell you what it really is
I can only tell you what it feels like
And right now there's a steel knife
In my windpipe
I can't breathe
But I still fight
While I can fight
As long as the wrong feels right
It's like I'm in flight
High of a love
Drunk from the hate
It's like I'm huffing paint
And I love it the more that I suffer
I sufficate
And right before im about to drown
She resuscitates me
She fucking hates me
And I love it
Wait
Where you going
I'm leaving you
No you ain't
Come back
We're running right back
Here we go again
It's so insane
Cause when it's going good
It's going great
I'm Superman
With the wind in his bag
She's Lois Lane
But when it's bad
It's awful
I feel so ashamed
I snap
Who's that dude
I don't even know his name
I laid hands on her
I'll never stoop so low again
I guess I don't know my own strength

Just gonna stand there
And watch me burn
But that's alright
Because I like
The way it hurts
Just gonna stand there
And hear me cry
But that's alright
Because I love
The way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

You ever love somebody so much
You can barely breathe
When you're with them
You meet
And neither one of you
Even know what hit 'em
Got that warm fuzzy feeling
Yeah them chills
Used to get 'em
Now you're getting fucking sick
Of looking at 'em
You swore you've never hit 'em
Never do nothing to hurt 'em
Now you're in each other's face
Spewing venom
And these words
When you spit 'em
You push
Pull each other's hair
Scratch, claw, bit 'em
Throw 'em down
Pin 'em
So lost in the moments
When you're in 'em
It's the rage that took over
It controls you both
So they say it's best
To go your separate ways
Guess that they don't know ya
Cause today
That was yesterday
Yesterday is over
It's a different day
Sound like broken records
Playin' over
But you promised her
Next time you'll show restraint
You don't get another chance
Life is no Nintendo game
But you lied again
Now you get to watch her leave
Out the window
Guess that's why they call it window pane

Just gonna stand there
And watch me burn
But that's alright
Because I like
The way it hurts
Just gonna stand there
And hear me cry
But that's alright
Because I love
The way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

Now I know we said things
Did things
That we didn't mean
And we fall back
Into the same patterns
Same routine
But your temper's just as bad
As mine is
You're the same as me
But when it comes to love
You're just as blinded
Baby please come back
It wasn't you
Baby it was me
Maybe our relationship
Isn't as crazy as it seems
Maybe that's what happens
When a tornado meets a volcano
All I know is
I love you too much
To walk away though
Come inside
Pick up your bags off the sidewalk
Don't you hear sincerity
In my voice when I talk
Told you this is my fault
Look me in the eyeball
Next time I'm pissed
I'll aim my fist
At the dry wall
Next time
There will be no next time
I apologize
Even though I know it's lies
I'm tired of the games
I just want her back
I know I'm a liar
If she ever tries to fucking leave again
I'mma tie her to the bed
And set the house on fire

Just gonna stand there
And watch me burn
But that's alright
Because I like
The way it hurts
Just gonna stand there
And hear me cry
But that's alright
Because I love
The way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

No afraid

one of my fav rapper.

♥ his song so so much.

(Hook)

I'm not afraid to take a stand
Everybody come take my hand
We'll walk this road together, through the storm
Whatever weather, cold or warm
Just let you know that, you're not alone
Holla if you feel that you've been down the same road

(Intro)

Yeah, It's been a ride...
I guess I had to go to that place to get to this one
Now some of you might still be in that place
If you're trying to get out, just follow me
I'll get you there

(Verse 1)

You can try and read my lyrics off of this paper before I lay 'em
But you won't take this thing out these words before I say 'em
Cause ain't no way I'm let you stop me from causing mayhem
When I say 'em or do something I do it, I don't give a damn
What you think, I'm doing this for me, so fuck the world
Feed it beans, it's gassed up, if a thing's stopping me
I'mma be what I set out to be, without a doubt undoubtedly
And all those who look down on me I'm tearing down your balcony
No if ands or buts don't try to ask him why or how can he
From Infinite down to the last Relapse album he's still shit'n
Whether he's on salary, paid hourly
Until he bows out or he shit's his bowels out of him
Whichever comes first, for better or worse
He's married to the game, like a fuck you for christmas
His gift is a curse, forget the earth he's got the urge
To pull his dick from the dirt and fuck the universe

(Hook)

I'm not afraid to take a stand
Everybody come take my hand
We'll walk this road together, through the storm
Whatever weather, cold or warm
Just let you know that, you're not alone
Holla if you feel that you've been down the same road

(Verse 2)
Ok quit playin' with the scissors and shit, and cut the crap
I shouldn't have to rhyme these words in the rhythm for you to know it's a rap
You said you was king, you lied through your teeth
For that fuck your feelings, instead of getting crowned you're getting capped
And to the fans, I'll never let you down again, I'm back
I promise to never go back on that promise, in fact
Let's be honest, that last Relapse CD was "ehhhh"
Perhaps I ran them accents into the ground
Relax, I ain't going back to that now
All I'm tryna say is get back, click-clack BLAOW
Cause I ain't playin' around
There's a game called circle and I don't know how
I'm way too up to back down
But I think I'm still tryna figure this crap out
Thought I had it mapped out but I guess I didn't
This fucking black cloud still follow's me around
But it's time to exercise these demons
These motherfuckers are doing jumping jacks now!

(Hook)

I'm not afraid to take a stand
Everybody come take my hand
We'll walk this road together, through the storm
Whatever weather, cold or warm
Just let you know that, you're not alone
Holla if you feel that you've been down the same road

(Bridge)

And I just can't keep living this way
So starting today, I'm breaking out of this cage
I'm standing up, Imma face my demons
I'm manning up, Imma hold my ground
I've had enough, now I'm so fed up
Time to put my life back together right now

(Verse 3)

It was my decision to get clean, I did it for me
Admittedly I probably did it subliminally for you
So I could come back a brand new me, you helped see me through
And don't even realise what you did, believe me you
I been through the ringer, but they can do little to the middle finger
I think I got a tear in my eye, I feel like the king of
My world, haters can make like bees with no stingers, and drop dead
No more beef flingers, no more drama from now on, I promise
To focus soley on handling my responsibility's as a father
So I solemnly swear to always treat this roof like my daughters and raise it
You couldn't lift a single shingle on it
Cause the way I feel, I'm strong enough to go to the club
Or the corner pub and lift the whole liquor counter up
Cause I'm raising the bar, I shoot for the moon
But I'm too busy gazing at stars, I feel amazing and

(Hook)

I'm not afraid to take a stand
Everybody come take my hand
We'll walk this road together, through the storm
Whatever weather, cold or warm
Just let you know that, you're not alone
Holla if you feel that you've been down the same road

i love you

day by day

night by night

i fall in love

A love so incomprehensible

Into my world full of darkness and silence,
but you

you brought light and music

Your soft voice never silent
It’s forever in my ears
i day dream of you

you embracing me so tight

holding my hand

and touching my face

i feel warm ...

and i feel touch ..

coz no matter what ..

you r always there for me....

even i act like a kid

always so so vexatious

always show you my attitude

Im very sorry ...

and very sorry about this...

i feel so lost...

and you

you always forgive me ....

u always be with me..

i love you ..

i feel so lost when u ignore me ...

im sorry i know i hurt u ...

and its make me know that ....

i cant live without you ..

i really feel the heart pain ....

im sorry

and i love you ...

and i believe we will be together forever...