累了

腦袋一片空白

思緒跟心緒都很亂

很不安的感覺

在我的胸口

壓著我

呼吸不了

好討厭這樣的感覺

要怎樣才能使自己好過

為甚麼這樣的感覺都一直的跟隨著我

好討厭這樣的日子

好討厭這樣的自己

當自己一個人在黑暗的空間

突然感覺好孤單

心情突然的360度改變

心緒更加的混亂

而眼淚不知不覺的滑落

是為甚麼？

為甚麼？

為甚麼？

一直努力的克制，

卻就在那一秒鐘里被取代了

眼淚，悲傷戰勝了一切

開始

滑落的淚水

慢慢的變成涕不成聲

好討厭這麼的自己

好討厭哭泣的感覺

但是我卻控制不了

問題到底出在哪裡？

i feel...

i feel want to vomit ....

alone

i mean to be alone...

alone by myself

i know ...

i mean nothing to you

i know ...

im just nothing

in da dark ...

i cant find anything

i only be with my tears

my tears

they are my best fren

keep crying and crying and crying

because i believe that

crying can make me feel good

crying can forget everything

crying make me tired

so i can sleep well ...

me .... myself...

am i really mean to be alone ?

yes ...

yes ...

i am ...

confused

confused

confused of my life

confused of who am i

confused of everything i did ....

i just confused

what am i doing now..

i don't know...

i have no idea about it...

i have no idea

and no idea

i just hanging here for everyday ...

i don't know what going on

and what going wrong

i tried to live my life carefully

but everything happen just without a reason

i have to accept everything

i have to take everything...

its called life...

and i confused about it

i hate about it ......

一個極之愚蠢的人就是我！！！

你一點都沒錯，錯的是我，你做的全部都是對的，怪的就是怪我沒有盡全力去幫你對嗎？怪的就是怪我一點兄妹情都不顧對嗎？怪的就是怪我太斤斤計較對嗎？怪的就是怪我太沒大沒小，對你大呼小叫，一點禮貌都沒有對嗎？怪的就是怪我逼得你太緊，一點都不體諒你對嗎？怪的就是怪我，一次機會都不給你，只是一直的懷疑你對嗎？對對對，你一點都沒錯，所有事情都是我的錯？對呀，你都沒欠我，是我欠了你？在這個世界上做得最對的就只有你，我做的所有事情都是錯的對嗎？這些都是我自己找死的，對嗎？現在這些問題都是我製造的對嗎？並不是你帶給我的痛苦，而是我帶給你麻煩，給你痛苦對嗎？是呀，你是完完全全的對！真的！是我們對不起你對嗎？就是這樣，這就是事實，不是嗎？

life...

life...

life is ...

confused

what is life?

how does its smell like ?

how does its look like ?

i just wan to ...

want to close my eyes

to feel it

feel it

and feel it

but

i feel nothing

i feel numb

you dont care !!!

oh...

now only know....

you don't care

then why should i care ??